I feel a little sleepy now, I have just taken my medications which as always makes me go staright to dreamland...
Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, Mama,I and my sister went to metropolitan cathedral to attend the stations of the cross with the archbishop(just so happened that the archbishop himself is not there, maybe he is not feelig well...) and then right afterwards attended another mass for the occasion. (I attended mass in the morning already and had ash put on my forehead)
Last night, I felt so impatient towards my younger sister, I kept on telling her to text my friend for me but she kept on reasoning out that (and lying) she has no load. Maybe she felt so important because I have no celphone myself. I felt irritable by the time I went to bed, I pushed her away from bed and told her to sleep somewhere else... I might just have the urge to strangle her that's why. God forgive me. I don't want people around whom I trust to behave the way she does, as if she's someone I need to bow to and bend my knees to. I was just asking a favor.
But, in a way, I am happy that I was able to manage my rushing emotions. Maybe I should tell my psychiatrist the very next time I see her. Maybe she would consider getting me out of my home confinement-shit.
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