it's 4 ami can't sleep...i close my eyes and see a thousand images around me. i think of thoughts more than what i can handle. my mind is racing as a car full speed on the racing track. hitting full speed, hitting hard the metal on the pedal.
and then i talk, endlessly going from one subject to another. my mama listened patiently until tiredness and boredom. i wanted to do so many things but accomplish nothing at the same time. i start doing things and then i realize i cannot finish them. i want to do one thing and do it immediately like an obsessed and posessed being. i can hardly concentrate on one thing like reading. something would always come up and distract me and suddenly i find myself doing another thing like writing this.
i'm afraid i'm going overboard again. i wanted to withdarw money from the bank and spend yet i'm afraid of depleting my finances and my family's. HELP!
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