25 and still a virgin...

i don't have much to say for

now...

just a bit frustrated because

things seem to be NOT going

according to what i hoped or

wished...

but then my SD Fr. Carretero,

SJ told me last thursday

during spiritual direction

that "you have to let God run

the show"

he's right, i forgot that

there's a God who's in charge

of everything...

i hope i would be able to

trust in God, he said that i

have to ask God to have faith,

i cannot trust when i don't

believe... that's a bit hard.

but this time i always pray to

God to let me grow in faith.

i also am a bit worried of my

future, but then i have to be

contented of what i have now

first, and do something. if i

don't become a "MADRE" then so

be it, if i don't become a

wife and mother then so be it,

atleast i know that i still

have other options... like

being a MISSIONARY. it doesn't

matter if i remain a virgin

for life, all that matters is

i'm happy and striving to die

a holy death.