Dilemma

it has been a while that i get to post things here... in a way i can say that it is because i am not that inspired to write or if i do, it would be cheesy and mushy things! my friend even said that i post usually love letters here, what can i do? i have two (yes TWO) boyfriends this time. i don't see both though coz they are from other countries.one of them is a muslim while the other is a catholic.both of them knew that there are two of them occupying equal space in my heart (or so i guess, haha).

so far, my life is going on smoothly, until last night when my Muslim boyfriend, ARIS (see photo) said that there is a girl whom he met at Mc Donald's one time who seems to like him. he was of course adamant about messaging or texting the girl before he asks my permission first. so i agreed but i said no dates coz it is in our rules but later i realized maybe he needs freedom and so today i agreed to let him date her and just told he that there must be no physical contact especially kissing and sex. and if ever he falls in love he must tell me right away so that we can break up. i think it is my prerogative to give him leeway to meet girls his age especially because he is just 18 years old. i cannot force him or tie him down. i was jealous perhaps but i know that i did the right thing. i hope he is happy. by the way we call each other "JANU" which means "baby" in their language in Pakistan. =)