Summer Sulks

unlucky,
i did not get to join apple and mae2
on their summer trip to caramoan,
it has made me feel so bad about
it all.
like i don't want to talk about it
mama really pisses me off these days

i hope i was NOT anymore invited to
join them, i was able to pack my things
and all...

it is just like SHIT i don't have
the right to complain anymore,
or maybe becuase i am not on my best
behavior the past day... am i manic again?
it's always the money issue that made me
cringe so bad that i want to punch mama
she always say that the money
goes to the drug store for my medicines

can i NOT enjoy?
i really wanted to swim and have a tan
and since that place is breath taking
i don't damn care if it is costly or what!
mae2 promised to shoulder my expenses
and it was mama's fault that i missed out
the fun, the sea and the sand!