Summer Sulks

unlucky,
i did not get to join apple and mae2
on their summer trip to caramoan,
it has made me feel so bad about
it all.
like i don't want to talk about it
mama really pisses me off these days

i hope i was NOT anymore invited to
join them, i was able to pack my things
and all...

it is just like SHIT i don't have
the right to complain anymore,
or maybe becuase i am not on my best
behavior the past day... am i manic again?
it's always the money issue that made me
cringe so bad that i want to punch mama
she always say that the money
goes to the drug store for my medicines

can i NOT enjoy?
i really wanted to swim and have a tan
and since that place is breath taking
i don't damn care if it is costly or what!
mae2 promised to shoulder my expenses
and it was mama's fault that i missed out
the fun, the sea and the sand!

A Looooonnng Day

i guess i cannot help being pissed off at all
it was mama's fault...no,
maybe it was mine
i was really addicted to texting these days
maybe it is not helping me
being on medication and all that crap
i just wish she'd be more reasonable...
i'm already 26 and can handle men,
why on earth would she think that
i will do my past mistakes with my
past male textmates? duh!

but then Apple may be right,
it was after all mama's number i am using...
why won't they make me use celphone?
why can't i get a life???
ahh... may be i am just tired

anyway,
i am happy now, after visiting Sr. Jelind
and my nieces and having my toenails
painted bloody red...
Allie was extra sweet, both are more
"makulit" than usual, and i can't help
but stare at Allie's innocent eyes
i wonder if those innocence
can be held on in my memory forever...
I even asked Gwen if she'd allow
me to still give her a smack when she
is already a lady, she said YES
without second thoughts...
and come to think of it she also pampered
me today, wiped my sweat at the back and
put baby powder, i told her, maybe
i'm still a baby, she said NO, coz i am
a Tita... and i told her then it must be that
they are my babies and they said "Mama"
like i long for someone to call me that --
my own baby or can i say babies...

God help me.
how can i resist all those loving caresses
from my two lovable nieces, they are
my world, so is Jam2 my only nephew...
maybe I cannot exchange them for
all the diamonds in the world.
they are always my lucky charms!

Sr. Jelind, DC

Thank you Sister for being so nice and generous
and loving to me
salamat for your treat to me at Bigg's this lunch,
i was really full and happy to see you again.

She also gave me a beautiful umbrella, and Olay soap.
the umbrella reminds me of her friendship to me
she will be there if the sun scorches really hot
or if the rain falls too hard on me... how nice
how sweet!

Thank you Lord for giving me this nice lady.
Sr. Jelind, maybe you are a SAINT!