Unrequited Love

Last time I checked my heart
I believe I was in love...
and I can still feel love
coursing through my veins
like virus spreading
through out my body...

Fr. Paco Mallari, SJ of Ateneo
advised me to keep loving
even if it means not being loved back

maybe this is the essence of love
after all...
but unrequited love is never
an easy matter,
always complex,
confusing,
and very difficult
to accept at times.

I still love him whenever I see him
I still miss him when I don't see him
like today...
Sometimes I wish we are just living
in a small space
where every time I can bump on him
so that at least it can compensate
for the hurts I feel.

Sometimes I do not want to hold his gaze
I feel he knows me more than I know myself.

Ah! I feel so freaked out because of this
emotion,
I need a drop of Wisdom
somewhere out there...