Saturday, December 17, 2011

Moira Ysabelle has come from heaven


it has been some kindda
Christmas vacation here in Ombao
i am happy that dadi received me
in spite of my unstable condition

I am trying my best to recuperate
with prayers from St. Vincent Ferrer
the patron Saint here in Ombao, Bula.

Mama is in Makati tending to my
sister-from-hell who gave birth
just recently via Caesarian Section.

Mama was not supposed to take so long.
and I had my fits this morning
sending her messages over the phone
telling her i should've been there
if only that maldita allowed me
to go with Mama to Manila.
i would like to see my niece
who has lotsa hair already on her head and
chubby cheeks that i would love to pinch.

Moira Ysabelle, you are a blessing
i do not regret praying for you
to come into our world
even if your parents are ungrateful shitheads.

Just please understand that your
Tita is not insane... she is just a bit unwell.
and maybe when you grow up you would
take pity of me and take care of me if i
grow old and alone.

i hate to think that i would be alone when
Mama dies someday that is why I am planning
a seppuku after her death so as to have two
funerals in one occasion.

God Bless you my little "Rysa"... tell your
angel to watch over you as you go about this
complicated world of ours.

and p.s. don't listen to your Mom always
she is out of her mind more than me. love you niece!



To Moira Ysabelle

it has been some kindda
Christmas vacation here in Ombao
i am happy that dadi received me
in spite of my unstable condition

I am trying my best to recuperate
with prayers from St. Vincent Ferrer
the patron Saint here in Ombao, Bula.

Mama is in Makati tending to my
sister-from-hell who gave birth
just recently via Caesarian Section.

Mama was not supposed to take so long.
and I had my fits this morning
sending her messages over the phone
telling her i should've been there
if only that maldita allowed me
to go with Mama to Manila.
i would like to see my niece
who has lotsa hair already on her head and
chubby cheeks that i would love to pinch.

Moira Ysabelle, you are a blessing
i do not regret praying for you
to come into our world
even if your parents are ungrateful shitheads.

Just please understand that your
Tita is not insane... she is just a bit unwell.
and maybe when you grow up you would
take pity of me and take care of me if i
grow old and alone.

i hate to think that i would be alone when
Mama dies someday that is why I am planning
a seppuku after her death so as to have two
funerals in one occasion.

God Bless you my little "Rysa"... tell your
angel to watch over you as you go about this
complicated world of ours.

and p.s. don't listen to your Mom always
she is out of her mind more than me. love you niece!



Monday, December 5, 2011

Heart to Heart

You know very well the desires of my heart, O Lord
You know that this emotion is unwelcome
and a hindrance to someone's vocation.
Teach me to divert all my energies to more
important things.

I feel very tired already
of waiting in vain for that Man who will
rescue me from my solitude.
But, I am not incomplete.
I am made whole by your love, Jesus...
Thank you because you know very well
what I need even before I ask.

Thank you for making me happy in simple
and seemingly minute things...
Thank you for letting me serve you as a Disc Jockey--
Thank you for helping me in my day to day
struggle to forego with my laziness and to imbibe a
spirit of volunteerism and service to the Church.

But you also know that I am love
as You are love Yourself...
I am made to love and I am sorry
that I am in love with the wrong man.

I promise I will not take him away from you
and will always pray for strength...

Guide my path. be my light.
Be my knight in shining armor. Amen.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Job Offer

Someone is interested in getting me to work for her
Thank God
Prayers answered. I needed a job where I can earn something.

Wish me Luck guys...

mwah ♥

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Prayer for Apple

This prayer to the parents of St. Therese of the Child Jesus namely: Blessed Louis and Zelie Martin is dedicated to Apple Abilay for her complete healing and for all those who are suffering from breast tumors or cancer.

Let us Pray:
Dear Blessed Louis and Zelie Martin, parents of the powerful St. therese of Liseux, you once hoped to commit yourselves to the religious life. Yet, through your loving embrace of each other in holy marriage, you bore the daughters who each dedicated their lives in religious service to the Lord. Grant that we may be as generous to the Lord as you were, through your kind and faithful intercession. May we encourage, support and pray for religous and priestly vocations in our midst. May we yield wholeheartedly to the Lord when one among our children follows the religious life. May we pray for strength during the consequent adjustment of physical separation from them in this life, so that we may glorify the Lord even now, be reunited with them in the next and bask in God's perfect love for all eternity. AMEN.

PRAYER FOR THE CANONIZATION OF BL. LOUIS AND ZELIE MARTIN

God, our Father, we praise you for Louis and Zelie Martin, a truly faithful husband and wife, who lived their life and practice of Gospel teaching. In bringing up a large family, in spite of the trials, bereavements and suffering, they showed immense trust in you and obedience to your will. Lord, deign to manifets your will in their regard and grant me the favors I implore while praying that the father and mother of St. Therese of the Child Jesus be presented as models of family life today. AMEN.

Bl. Louis and Zelie Martin, Pray for us

If you have any information relevant to the canonization of Bl. Louis and Zelie Martin, Pls contact:
Office Central de Liseux
51 Rue du Carmel
14100 Lisieux, France

For our dear Friends, please Pray with us and Like this in Facebook and share with your own friends, too. Thanks

Sunday, July 31, 2011

He's Leaving ME

He's leaving
maybe that's what
guys are always good at:
leaving us behind

i hope for the short time
we spent together
i created a niche
in his heart...

i will surely miss him,
as i miss him even if i
do not see him even
just for a day
how much more now
that he will be gone
...maybe for good?

that leaves me
to square one...
ground zero...
let's evaluate the damage done
and let the Lord work
his miracles once more.


~for R. A.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

On Papa's Birthday


It was Papa's Birthday yesterday...
He was not around to celebrate it with us
but I am sure his spirit was hovering
and sharing the laughter and stories
among us-- his Family and Friends

I am especially thankful to Dadi,
Fr. Jess Berdol who gave a wonderful
homily (though I was not able to hear it. :P)
and for being a doting father to me and my siblings.
I know Papa is satisfied in the ways that
Dadi show his affection and concern for me
and Mama. His being a disciplinarian reminds
me to always be a better person and not
a liability to society.

I am also very grateful for the presence of
Fr. Bernard Lagatic and Fr. Francisco Parza.
They have been fond sons to Mama. They have been
her great happiness in spite of the many
trials that beset us. Thank you for always being here
for us when we need you.

To the rest of our guests, Reynante and Auntie Nens,
thank you for gracing the occasion and sharing our joy
as one family.

And to my Family, Mama, I know Papa is
watching close... He has never abandoned us and will
always be with us till the end. To my Siblings, thank
you for all the support and undying love for Papa and
Mama. And Finally to my lovable Nephew and Nieces,
I am so happy you are one with us and doubling our
happiness by your innocent gestures. We love you Gwen, Allie and Jam-Jam! ♥♥♥

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Unrequited Love

Last time I checked my heart
I believe I was in love...
and I can still feel love
coursing through my veins
like virus spreading
through out my body...

Fr. Paco Mallari, SJ of Ateneo
advised me to keep loving
even if it means not being loved back

maybe this is the essence of love
after all...
but unrequited love is never
an easy matter,
always complex,
confusing,
and very difficult
to accept at times.

I still love him whenever I see him
I still miss him when I don't see him
like today...
Sometimes I wish we are just living
in a small space
where every time I can bump on him
so that at least it can compensate
for the hurts I feel.

Sometimes I do not want to hold his gaze
I feel he knows me more than I know myself.

Ah! I feel so freaked out because of this
emotion,
I need a drop of Wisdom
somewhere out there...

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Thanks to YOU

Thank you there are many things to be grateful for, LORD, thank you for everything esp. for making me feel love at this time... my heart beats remind me of your immense love for me no matter how sinful i am.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

A petition letter to God

22 March 2011


Dear God,

I know that you know the desires of our hearts even if we do not ask for them or even before we utter them. It has been 2 years and yet Ate Monchie is not able to conceive yet. They(Monchie and Roland) badly wanted a baby as parched earth needs rain. A baby will complete their faily and wil bring them joy all the days of their life.

I know the needed to learn a lesson first, that there is more to life than career and making money. You know that I also fear solitary life during old age. They also do. They wanted to have someone to care for and give their love to. Someone of their own blood,their own genes, someone who can take care of them when they grow old and gray.

Lord, I trust you wanted all of us to be happy. Pls. grant this immense desire of their hearts. Be with Kuya Roland and Ate Monchie as they strive their best to achieve this goal. Please make a miracle happen in their lives now. I believe you will answer this request.



Sincerely,
(Signed)
Honey

*NOTE: If you want to support this petition PLEASE sign this letter in your heart and offer one Hail Mary. Thank you. May God Bless you All!

Monday, March 7, 2011

silent mumbles

I hate to believe it but time flies by
so quickly...
I have been waiting for him for a day
then days and then weeks
until i realize i need not wait anymore at all.

i feel helpless like a little babe
because i cannot find a way to communicate
with him
he seemed to be a bubble that seemed
to have popped out of the blue.

now i seem to have my own bubble in my head
i wish i can get out of this pig shit that
i am in...
i wish i will not be terribly sorry for myself
or sad or forlorn.

men sometimes make life hell for me
that i believe they are hell themselves.

suppose i let go and forget him
and he comes back,
what should i do?

hmmm... never mind that's not
what is happening now.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

New Wings

i dont like to think about you anymore

no more lies...

no more promises...

i will never wait anymore.

there is so much things that await me
without you i feel empty

but sooner i will feel free.

i will soar with new wings!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Missin YOU

I just miss you sweety...
there's really nothing new
to say here...

I hope you are okey.

I love you.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Cheesy Wednesday :)

Tired today,
I taught kids about the History
of the Miraculous Medal this morning...
I just finished correcting the grammar of minutes which are
several pages long and the fonts are too tiny.
I feel a headache coming up.

I slept 12 am last night...
i stayed up because i was too happy to
fall asleep...
i remember the lines:
"love is NOT sleeping coz reality
is better than a dream"
I thought about BF a lot...
and wondered if the lack of sleep was due
to the fact that he was thinking of me too.
I asked him this morning and he said he did.
My stomach did an automatic flip
and my heart seemed to leap out of my chest.
Ah! LOVE... what joys it brings to man!

Sometimes I am just too grateful i forgot
that I am manic today. Maybe, it will just last
for a day and go away...
Else I must see my Dr. before my birthday,
or maybe i was just to excited for my special day...

I think I need a break... A back Massage
and A Romantic Movie, What do you think?




whatever it is, i am glad i am alive and IN LOVE!

***dedicated to Ahmed Hamza, my one love

Monday, February 7, 2011

For Sweety

I figured out how love can be so wonderful
it is when i have met you.
you made life easy for me.
you made it the best that it can ever be.
I am glad to have found my home
and it is in your heart.

Now i do not feel alone
or lonely anymore
I feel the sun shining down on me
I feel the sea breeze calling my name.
I hear the crickets whisper your name.

Come sooner and find me waiting
coz i will be here waiting for love
as I have never waited before.

Promise me you are mine
Forever


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Baby Sitting


it's quite an experience
to babysit my nephew
yesterday...
it was not an ordinary task at all
he has his moods, i have mine
he throws tantrums
and i say "bad"
it has been an exercise also
carrying him who is heavy
much heavier than your ordinary
one year old boy.

it has been a blissful time too
all that laugh seemed to infect
even the morose ones.
his laughter filled the air
and took away my worries away.

what a day i had yesterday
when i baby sat my nephew
Jam Jam!

Monday, January 3, 2011

New Year Post

Happy New Year Guys!

2011:
Year of the Metal Rabbit


Got many new things
to look forward to.

and hopefully i fulfill
my resolution
to LOSE WEIGHT.

I wish for all the best
for everyone. Cheers!